this morning i get to go under anasthesia for a follow up look down my stomach. im kind of looking forward to that post anasthestic feeling ... last time i woke up to hear neil young's down by the river gushing out of my ears although my wife assured me that no such music was playing.

besides getting some potential answers about my stomach issues... the idea that im embracing is that the wake up period allows me to kind of 'start over' or restart if you will... and i hope to take full advantage of the opportunity. my real desire is just to have a new beginning to improve myself. i feel like im so totally out of sync with what i can possibly become and i just need a jump start to get going in the right direction